Monday, November 22, 2010
I got shot in the heart today,Today is grandma's last day funeral.
It hurts... a lot.
I finally woke up from my freaking trance and reality hits me.
I told myself, "AH MA AIN'T COMING BACK, GET THIS IN YOUR BRAIN YOU FREAKING ASSHOLE."
I saw how 3rd Aunt cried when the coffin is cremated,
I knew that what was left of grandma is only ashes,
and she ain't coming back ain't coming back ain't coming back.
I saw how almost everyone cried today.
How it left a huge scar on my heart.
and whenever i think of my grandma, my heart and head hurts.
I told myself to be strong,
not to cry cause grandma is in a better place,
And Death is part and parcel of life.
I practically detest myself for being weak.
I question myself: "what am i gonna react if my mother passed away?"
Just watching grandma's coffin went in to be cremated is the worse memory that i can't erased in my mind.
Never mind,
This will be the last post on this blog,
the last post on grandma.
I don't know why it affect me so greatly.
But yea, it just does.
shit happens.
That's it.
I must be strong.
And knowing there is people there for me helps a lot.
K byes.
Labels: Last Goodbye
