Friday, November 26, 2010
Hello.
Relink.
I won't tell you the url though.
Tag my blog, and i'll sms you the link.
I don't want my new blog to be too public, you get the idea?
It's a new beginning, a fresh start. :D
That's it.
Take cares everyone. (:
Ps. Look at last year's november posts.
Compare to this year's november posts.
See the difference?
I am not whom i am used to be, that's kinda sad.
Labels: The beginning of an ending
Monday, November 22, 2010
I got shot in the heart today,Today is grandma's last day funeral.
It hurts... a lot.
I finally woke up from my freaking trance and reality hits me.
I told myself, "AH MA AIN'T COMING BACK, GET THIS IN YOUR BRAIN YOU FREAKING ASSHOLE."
I saw how 3rd Aunt cried when the coffin is cremated,
I knew that what was left of grandma is only ashes,
and she ain't coming back ain't coming back ain't coming back.
I saw how almost everyone cried today.
How it left a huge scar on my heart.
and whenever i think of my grandma, my heart and head hurts.
I told myself to be strong,
not to cry cause grandma is in a better place,
And Death is part and parcel of life.
I practically detest myself for being weak.
I question myself: "what am i gonna react if my mother passed away?"
Just watching grandma's coffin went in to be cremated is the worse memory that i can't erased in my mind.
Never mind,
This will be the last post on this blog,
the last post on grandma.
I don't know why it affect me so greatly.
But yea, it just does.
shit happens.
That's it.
I must be strong.
And knowing there is people there for me helps a lot.
K byes.
Labels: Last Goodbye
Friday, November 19, 2010
Hellos.
I am feeling pretty okay now. (:
LOL actually i shouldn't be posting here, but i really need somewhere to spill my guts out.
I can't believe another person passed away.
Hian Yuan.
From 3N.
I known him for like 2 days during leadership camp.
Sad sia.
Even though i didn't talk to you after camp.
Rest in peace.
Does death comes in threes? :/
Btw, Who wants to pay respect to my grandmother can come.
Please sms me if you guys want. :)
Till monday.
Ok i am done.
Byes.
Ps. We all change. I am curt because i can't accept your change at all.
You change too much.
Labels: Too young too proud to understand
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
heys.
Can't believe i am stil posting here.
It's 1 am.
I just went back from my grandmother's funeral.
I have been there since i rushed from my remedial to there.
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It's kinda shocking for me.
I dunno why i felt so numb.
I cried in the Lrt,
which is really embarrassing.
Am i in a dream?
A trance?
I wonder.
so unreal.
It's too.. sudden.
I am feeling kind of weird now.
Unconscious reality.
Like in a trance, never really awake but not asleep.
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Anyways,
I wanted to say thanks to everyone who send their condolences.
And a few special people who have been there for me. :)
Firstly,
I want to say thanks to Idayu, The best damn evil partner i ever had.
Thanks for cheering me up the whole day, even though you used prepaid.
Thanks for caring.
You are such a genuine friend, i appreciate that.
Really THANKS for all the times.
Secondly,
to Joveis, My cousin.
Thanks for bothering to make an effort to buy present for my father even though it's Grandma's funeral.
Thanks for being there for me.
Thanks for all the years where you always stick up for me when i was young and often got bullied.
I never had a chance to say thanks,
you are a great cousin.
Thirdly,
To you. :)
Thanks for listening to me,
Thanks for being there for me.
Thanks for Being so understanding and caring.
Thanks for everything.
Lastly,
To my Dearest Grandma,
How do you find Heaven?
I hope you will cherish all the memories we spent together.
I will Not be sad,
Cause you finally went to a better place,
Instead of suffering from a stroke.
I love you,
Rest in peace, grandma.
Saturday, November 13, 2010
I am tired of not having the freedom to write anything in this blog.
I mean like, people getting angry over your posts, and ended up being curt.
Or like AIYA, just no freedom kies?
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I will prob just ditch this blog.
like i said, i can't really know who views my blog or who doesn't.
So i will just stop blogging for the time being.
-
Wait till i got a private blog, a new URL, or probably just continue this blog after sometime.
Meanwhile, I won't continue blogging.
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So BYES.
There's really no use having a fake happy blog uh.
You can tag, i will occasionally come back to view the tagboard here, but i won't update.
Sherry.
Labels: Can someone tell me what the hell is heaven?
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Wake me upIt's 5 steps away from heaven~
HAHA. I am so damn happy today somehow.
Went with my brother & Uncle to see doctor today.
My brother has a weak heart. o.o
that's why his blood circulation a bit weak.
Comparing mine and his hands, his hands is damn yellowish sia, mine at least a bit pink.
Must be due to that fall last time.
Hope he get well soon. (:
Actually want stay at home watch bloody monday one,
But My brother kept emotional blackmailing me. HAHAS.
Saying how good he is to me. :/
HAHAHA.
Talking about Bloody Monday, it's a damn nice show.
Heh Heh. I LOVE IT LAH.
It has the girl from Doushite by DBSK.
and Takaki is damn cool. HAHAHAS.
Oh em gee, My sore throat and flu is killing me.
LOL I damn scared kana fever.
Bloody stupid one, every holiday must have at least one time tio fever.
like that dun want holiday better.
Hope tmrw will be better. (:
Anw, For the first time my physics test pass. :D
HAHAHA I didn't pass physics before sia..
Damn cool, isit because of the teacher's teaching or my motivation due to the anti-(insert name) Campaign? :D
Wow then i should start hating every teachers so that i can start passing my subjects?
HAHAHAHA Okay cut the shit uh. :P
Must spread the love. xD
not hatred.
Okay that's it.
Take cares people. (:
Stay at home to prevent kana whack or stab.
I DEMAND THAT PHYSICS SHOULD BE CANCELLED FOR THE TIME BEING DUE TO THE DANGERS OUTSIDE. :DDDD
Nah kidding.
Byes.
It's 5 steps away from heaven~
5 steps 5 steps~
Labels: Taste the poison
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Hellos. :D
I am damn happy today, cause Mt intensive is finally over.
HAHAHAHA.
but there's still physics.
Even thou it benefited me a lot,
it still sucks.
Mt is kinda fun.
Have been sitting with Bernadette, Mircia, Brandon, Jack and Kenneth.
Brandon really freaking noisy sio. xD
Always with his WUNTUN mian and keep crapping.
HAHAHA Me and Bernadette everytime gang up together shoot him.
He keep asking people eat shit. -.-
I really love our Joke of the week.
Everybody was like Bu yao bi wo in Jun Xiang's voice. :D
Super funny lah, and yesterday i laughed the hardest man. xD
It's doesn't feel like Intensive, like damn slack lor.
much better than physics.
cause i don't like the teacher but i like her lessons. LOLOL.
As for physics remedial,
to be honest, pretty much sucks.
damn i really hate the teacher man.
first 2 days i forget that she is damn biased.
Biased like shit.
If Mr Lim could teach like that, then i can fully activate my anti-(insert name) Campaign.
Now i seriously have a new motivation man.
to thrash physics so i can show the teacher.
Anw, FELICIA DITCHED ME. ):
we were suppose to sing the 12 days of christmas together one lor.
Now i left alone to countdown myself. T.T
Due to something that happened.
Okay, it's an inside joke, you guys won't understand it..
UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
sianz sia. ):
Eleven Pipers Piping~
HAHAS. That's all.
Will post sooner.
Byes.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
got the cold shoulderIt's really kinda scary not knowing who is viewing your blog.
I dunno whether you are angry at me because of one previous post or what,
but there's got to be a reason right?
I.Don't.Know.
Posting this probably will make you more angry, if you viewed my blog. -.-
Let's hope YOU didn't view my blog.
At all.
That's the time where i have to private my blog.
lol.
Argh.
okay let's not bother with this kind of things.
There's Mt homework and Physics.
Omg.
Gonna do them now.
Byes.
Labels: Let's hope. -.- Hope hope hope hope hope hope
